My (Gay) Love Story

I never knew you were gay.

Akala ko, barkada lang tayo. Nakakatuwa nga ng tinanggap mo akong maging kaibigan sa kabila ng preference ko. Hmmm, dapat pala clue na yun no? I mean, may straight na lalaki ba na makikipagbarkada sa hindi straight?

Pero high school pa naman kasi tayo nun eh, so hindi pa ako ganun kahalata. Siguro type mo na ako nun pa no? Kasi never naman kita naging kaklase, saka bakit naman ako makikipagkaibigan sa yo, wala naman tayong something in common.

Lagi mo akong pinapansin. Hindi ko naman binigyan ng malisya yun aksi nga friendly naman ako.

Fast forward 20 years.

Out of the blue, minessage mo ako sa Facebook. Oo naman kilala pa kita. Kakatuwa nga na hinanap mo pa talaga ako sa Facebook para makuha number ko.

Ayan, tinetext text mo na ako. Tapos tinanong mo kung duon pa rin ako nakatira. Nung sinabi kong oo, aba nung weekend na yun, pinuntahan mo agad ako...

Kwentuhan, reminiscing old times.

At nung nagpaalam ka, I was just going to shake your hands pero anong ginawa mo?

Ninakawan mo ako ng halik.

At dyan nagsimula ang ating love story...

Fifty Shades of Sex (err Grey)

I finished reading this last night. Truth be told, I am not a fan of fiction, I am a hard-core science fiction and fantasy reader. I got intrigued into reading this trilogy when I saw the movie's trailer. I am more of a book than movie, so I downloaded an e-book copy, and plowed to the story of Anastasia and Christian.

If you removed all the sex scenes in the plot, these three novels could be a short story of around 50 or so pages.

Okay, I liked it, albeit the sex scenes. I jumped ahead whenever Anastasia and Christian were doing it. Not because I find BDSM gross but for me, sex is sex. So what do I like about the novel(s)?

I find the characters well fleshed out. Though I give benefit of a doubt to how rich people acts (how would I know, I am not rich hahaha) but the emotional baggage they each have is enough to convince me to believe the way they act as they do.

What else?

I liked the way I imagine Christian to be hahaha.

I come to ask myself, is there such a thing as fifty shades? I am not that particular to shades. For me, black is black, white is white or blue. I guess I believe more on layers? People are like onions that you need to peel like at the end, either you cry at what you will find out or you carry-off your onion skin :)

Unfinished Business

I cooked this last night for today's lunch, oatmeal topped with coco jam to give flavor.  I know, still not healthy with all the sweets on top but oatmeal is so bland!

I really thought I can finish this but looks like this is just the best I can do.

Just like in life, there are fights that you go through the end and there are those that since you know is pointless, you would not go through at all. Just like today. And I am not just talking about my lunch here.

:(

Crushed Crush

Feelings I realized today:

1. the more you like a person, the greater that person's effect on you, positively or negatively
2. it is easier to fall in love than fall out of love
3. it is easier to break-up than to move on
4. you can only do so much, there are things beyond your control. No matter how much you care for that person, if that person does not feel the same way, tablado ka, iiyak mo na lang
5.  there are people you like that do not like you, the same way that there are people who like you that you do not like and people you like that like somebody else and that like you but of course you like somebody shet, nalito ako dun pero I'm sure may nakaintindi naman ng point ko

I'll add more if ever mainis na naman ako sa maghapon ko :)

It's Thursday, my most favorite day of the week...

PS - napaka-unrelated ng topic ko sa content hahahaha

The Journey Begins Now

As I look at myself in the mirror, I can't help but mutter, "Shit!"

Have I been ignoring myself for the past 13 years and let myself go? No wonder my exes broke up with me... or my exes are the damn good reason why I am in this predicament.

"Shit, shit, shit!"

I so look sad.

Thirteen years ago I could still see my feet, thirteen years now, I can only do that if I am sitting down.

Let me see, at thirty-seven, I still look like someone in their late twenties or early thirties from the neck up. From the neck down, nevermind...